Wednesday, May 27, 2009

This nervousa is not for me


It's strange how this big fat lump in my chest won't seem to leave me. I tell myself its nervousness yet I don't understand, there's nothing to worry about just the looming silence that is found in death.
I'm nervous for you and you anxities.
I wish you knew how I feel

The nervousa inside me is for you


Pacing up and down the drama department. Why the fuck won't those stupid drama bastards let me in. Don't they know that I have to see this production. Don't they know that I'm about to have a breakdown for the forth time in a row for not being able to get into that theatre once again.

Your show has started and I'm stuck outside with my genius idea of pulling a fire drill. Instead I give up and concentratre on your face and wish you luck from a far.

I see you after the production, you shrug me off like a piece of dirt.

Why do I still care ?