I woke up this morning with a strong sense of feeling absolutely nothing. My mind is numb and my heart has been overworking to contain and protect the love it was given when created. I have this eight page newspaper to layout and I also have a deal with some magic brown vegetables used as pizza topics. I know I should be in the Design Lab laying out this damned boring paper and get it over and done so I get fucked up like a character out of Skins but I would rather just sit here and get lost in the smooth curvatures of my mind and stare at the beige coloured walls with the utmost affection for Plascon for creating dirt paint colours.
"Let go of your heart, let go of your head and feel it now"
It's easier said then done Mr Gray, how about you come here into my res room and tell me just how to fuck my heart and just fucking feel it. How can I feel anything when my heart is tired and my head is dislodged out of the space and time continuum.
I need to sort this out, I need to get over this the same way I need to get over that person and the same way I need to open the curtains to let the sunshine in. I can see the brightness of the sun through the brown shitty colour, as the walls, curtains. I don't want to open it, it's there to make me believe that the day has begun and I should get the fuck to the Design labs and waste my life away. I need a change of heart. I need to feel again. I need to makes these walls less false and more realistic.
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